Some OT, some not. A little venting, a little beadmaking talk....

I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to why
coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day yesterday -
sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in this morning
wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions with
encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink and
gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes. Maybe
some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great ideas,
and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the creative
motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things will get
better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time of year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain freaking
out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same goes for
people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads of certain
colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom orders - I may
invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I have told people I
would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing everyday, folks -
especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I was
so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the Christmas/New
Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except Lurker/Steve.
He can kiss my glass.

--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net

Love you too Kandice, love your beads.... but love you much much more than
to want you to stress over them.
Hugs and more hugs
Diana

--
Weird people need beads, too
"Kandice Seeber" wrote in message
...
I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to
why
coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day yesterday -
sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in this morning
wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions
with
encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do
that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink
and
gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes.
Maybe
some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great
ideas,
and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the
creative
motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things will get
better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time of year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain
freaking
out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same goes for
people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads of certain
colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom orders - I
may
invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I have told people I
would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing everyday, folks -
especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I
was
so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the
Christmas/New
Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except
Lurker/Steve.
He can kiss my glass.

--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kandice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm right there with ya, except luckily I missed out on the illness
stuff. Here's hoping that all our fears are unfounded; I've never wanted
to be wrong more in my entire life. Because I'm *scared*.

-Kalera
http://www.beadwife.com
http://www.snipurl.com/kebay


Kandice Seeber wrote:
I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to why
coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day yesterday -
sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in this morning
wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions with
encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink and
gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes. Maybe
some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great ideas,
and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the creative
motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things will get
better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time of year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain freaking
out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same goes for
people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads of certain
colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom orders - I may
invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I have told people I
would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing everyday, folks -
especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I was
so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the Christmas/New
Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except Lurker/Steve.
He can kiss my glass.

I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions with
encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do that.


Hey Kandice - here's a reminder for you: You work for yourself, hon. You have
no boss, no one telling you what to do. You have no need to feel guilty while
making beautiful pink beads. So relax and enjoy. Do what you want when you
want, that's the whole point of being self-employed.

{{{{{Kandice}}}}}}}

Cheri
(Bubbee to Emily and Nathan)

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive - Bon Jovi

On Wed, 3 Nov 2004 15:07:42 -0800, "Kandice Seeber"
wrote:

I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened... *snip*

I feel your pain, Kandice! Seems as though when I have the time/health
to work, I often feel creatively murky. When I don't have the
time/health, I come up with some great ideas. I've taken to writing
everything down, but forget to take the notes into the studio.

Shows are very stressful, and I'm sure things will settle back in for
you after this is over.

And you hit the nail right on the head regarding custom orders. I
can't do them either, and I admit that it's nice to see another
flameworker who avoid it too.

Tink
Check here for available work:
http://blackswampglassworks.com/latest.htm

Kandice, honey, please don't ever feel you have to explian your choices to
anyone, regarding your bead making (or anything else, really, you *are* a
grown woman.) I'm assuming it's the political front that's gotten your mind
and body on the fritz.... a person who is purposefully out of the political
loop, I can only make a guess. I figure a good way to look at things now is
what will come will come. The first step is over, now we just have see what
happens. Get some Kandice time in...sounds like a good time for a home
spa.

--
~Candace~

Orphan Beads ~low cost and bartering for the financially challenged beader~
http://snipurl.com/6s4t

Princess Auctions ~please see for most current updates and auction
information~
http://snipurl.com/8s8o

"Kandice Seeber" wrote in message
...
I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to
why coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day
yesterday - sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in
this morning wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions
with encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do
that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink
and gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes.
Maybe some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great
ideas, and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the
creative motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things
will get better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time
of year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain
freaking out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same
goes for people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads
of certain colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom
orders - I may invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I have
told people I would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing everyday,
folks - especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I
was so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the
Christmas/New Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except
Lurker/Steve. He can kiss my glass.

--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net

Im scared too.. same reasons I think, but if it gets to bad there is
Australia and Canada... Cas will be overjoyed to see the lot of us show up
on her doorstep! ... So would my inlaws.
Diana

--
Weird people need beads, too
"Kalera Stratton" wrote in message
...
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kandice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm right there with ya, except luckily I missed out on the illness
stuff. Here's hoping that all our fears are unfounded; I've never wanted
to be wrong more in my entire life. Because I'm *scared*.

-Kalera
http://www.beadwife.com
http://www.snipurl.com/kebay


Kandice Seeber wrote:
I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to
why
coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day
yesterday -
sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in this
morning
wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions
with
encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do
that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink
and
gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes.
Maybe
some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great
ideas,
and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the
creative
motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things will get
better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time of
year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain
freaking
out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same goes
for
people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads of
certain
colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom orders - I
may
invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I have told people
I
would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing everyday, folks -
especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I
was
so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the
Christmas/New
Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except
Lurker/Steve.
He can kiss my glass.

Same here - in so many ways. I feel like my very freedom to be who I am is
in jeapardy. I feel like something big and dangerous is coming at me and
the rest of us. I feel almost like I did right after 911. I don't feel
safe.

--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kandice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm right there with ya, except luckily I missed out on the illness stuff.
Here's hoping that all our fears are unfounded; I've never wanted to be
wrong more in my entire life. Because I'm *scared*.

-Kalera
http://www.beadwife.com
http://www.snipurl.com/kebay


Kandice Seeber wrote:
I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to
why coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day
yesterday - sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in
this morning wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be
gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions
with encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to
do that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink
and gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes.
Maybe some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy
pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great
ideas, and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the
creative motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things
will get better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time
of year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain
freaking out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same
goes for people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads
of certain colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom
orders - I may invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I
have told people I would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing
everyday, folks - especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I
was so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the
Christmas/New Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except
Lurker/Steve. He can kiss my glass.

Thank you. Honestly. THANK YOU. I am sure people do understand. But
sometimes I let my feelings overwhelm me.

--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net

I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions
with
encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to do
that.


Hey Kandice - here's a reminder for you: You work for yourself, hon. You
have
no boss, no one telling you what to do. You have no need to feel guilty
while
making beautiful pink beads. So relax and enjoy. Do what you want when
you
want, that's the whole point of being self-employed.

{{{{{Kandice}}}}}}}

Cheri
(Bubbee to Emily and Nathan)

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive - Bon Jovi

It's not really me feeling like I have to explain - it's more the need
for some support and understanding. Which you all are really good at. I
have given myself quite a bit of off time and am hoping that doesn't kick me
in the butt later on. LOL
It's good to know I am not the only one with the concerns I have politically
and in terms of making beads. It's good to know I can tell people here my
concerns and people won't jump all over me. Well, and if they do, I can
defend myself.
Thank you Candace and others - I feel like sometimes this place is like a
warm blanket. Even with all the quibbles and such, this is like family to
me.
--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net

Kandice, honey, please don't ever feel you have to explian your choices to
anyone, regarding your bead making (or anything else, really, you *are* a
grown woman.) I'm assuming it's the political front that's gotten your
mind and body on the fritz.... a person who is purposefully out of the
political loop, I can only make a guess. I figure a good way to look at
things now is what will come will come. The first step is over, now we
just have see what happens. Get some Kandice time in...sounds like a
good time for a home spa.

--
~Candace~

Orphan Beads ~low cost and bartering for the financially challenged
beader~
http://snipurl.com/6s4t

Princess Auctions ~please see for most current updates and auction
information~
http://snipurl.com/8s8o

"Kandice Seeber" wrote in message
...
I'm depressed. Sad, a little angry and frightened. Three guesses as to
why coughelectioncough. I had a blinding headache all day
yesterday - sharp pain behind my left eye that came and went. I slept in
this morning wayyyyy too long, but at least the headache seems to be
gone.
Soooooo, today I got started torching way too late. Even though I have
stated here and on the website that I will be moving in new directions
with encased florals and frits and such, today is not the day for me to
do that.
I am therefore working in colors and designs that are comfy to me. Pink
and gold. Rounds with florals, scrolls, stripes, etc. Maybe some cubes.
Maybe some dots and twists. Much pink. ******sigh****** Ah, comfy
pink.
Maybe I will feel more like branching out after the show (show is on Nov
12th, and boy will I be glad when it's over).
To be honest, I am way stressed out. Some days I have tons of great
ideas, and very little time to act. On the days that I do have time, the
creative motivation is just not there. I think after this show, things
will get better. And I am having a love/hate relationship with this time
of year.

Blech.

So, those who have been watching my progress these past weeks, pay no
attention to the stressed out fire-loving chick behind the curtain
freaking out. Things will eventually even out after awhile I think. Same
goes for people who have been patiently waiting for more beads and beads
of certain colors and types. This is exactly why I am not taking custom
orders - I may invoke the right to change my mind on certain things I
have told people I would try to do. Gotta do what I feel like doing
everyday, folks - especially right now when things are this way.

It has felt like an uphill battle since the beginning of October when I
was so sick. Boy am I ever looking forward to vacation during the
Christmas/New Years week.

Thanks for letting me vent, you guys. Love you all....except
Lurker/Steve. He can kiss my glass.

--
Kandice Seeber
Air & Earth Designs
http://www.lampwork.net