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Gifting of my stitchery
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I am specifically talking about my mother now. She seems to think she can
tell me things, but the very next day tell me something else, denying that she ever told me the first thing. It all confuses me terribly. She says she just wants me to be supportive, but of what? What am I supporting, her dysfunction? I've been supporting her all my life, is that long enough? Is 48 years time to say "when?" I hate to dump this all on you guys, but from time to time I read and really learn to be a person from many of you and I need some feedback on this. Why here? snip this mother thing is confusing me. Thanks for listening. I'm truly not in a struggle, rather, I'm stumped. Victoria Dear Victoria, I can see why you're confused. I've been there too. My mother was like that. She also liked to pit her four children against each other. The last 3 years of her life (all but her last 3 weeks on this earth), she wouldn't speak to me -- she had told one sister some things, that sister changed things up a bit -- she's like my mom in that respect -- things got totally out of hand. Well, long story short, my mom went to live with the sister -- who -- let's just say things didn't go well. When my mom had enough, she moved back here, and was dxed with cancer. So she did what she always did in a crisis -- SHE CALLED ME. And I went to her. If it's any help at all to you to know this -- at the end, she apologized, and said she realized how much of it was all her fault. She said she hoped there would be peace in the family. I tried, but it was too late, too many lies and misrepresentations, just too much dysfunction. She left behind a mess of a family. But I had those last three weeks with her, when we were close again, and she was thinking clearly, and she was being loving and appreciative. Was that enough? How do you measure that? I don't know. I know I have to make do with what I have. I'm sorry your mom is that way, Victoria. Perhaps it is all she knows, and she can't change at this point in her life. I wouldn't for one minute suggest that you put up with it. It's wrong, and you shouldn't. But I would suggest that, if you can, you keep an open heart. Someday, maybe, things will change, and you'll want to be ready. It's crazy-making behavior, that's for sure. Jere |
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Hmmm, does she honestly not remember saying the first thing? Does she
claim you are putting words in her mouth? Is she in a different mood the "next day"? Does she also do this with other people? Is she completely aware of her behavior? I've just returned from my inlaw's and FIL is a prof. of psychiatry. I'm certain he would suggest that your mother have an evaluation to make certain she isn't in early Alzheimer's (even if she has been this way for a couple of decades) or have a personality disorder or some underlying medical condition. Of course it is possible she is simply being, um, cantankerous. As for yourself, take a couple of large hugs from the bank. You deserve them! animaux wrote: I am specifically talking about my mother now. She seems to think she can tell me things, but the very next day tell me something else, denying that she ever told me the first thing. It all confuses me terribly. She says she just wants me to be supportive, but of what? What am I supporting, her dysfunction? I've been supporting her all my life, is that long enough? Is 48 years time to say "when?" I hate to dump this all on you guys, but from time to time I read and really learn to be a person from many of you and I need some feedback on this. Why here? Well, since I post here every day and have been for years, I believe many people have gotten to know me. Maybe not on a deep level, but enough to see I've grown over the last few years and have softened up a lot. I can feel that about myself, but this mother thing is confusing me. Now, I am not trying to give the impression I am suffering any ill thoughts or feelings with this. I'm relatively fine about it all. What I don't know how to do is to be "supportive" of someone who changes the story daily to suit her whim, but expects me to be supportive. If I had a friend who was to marry a dirt bag, I would not attend the wedding and support that bond. That's a clear one. The mother one is harder. Any of you out there psychotherapists willing to have a discussion about this? We may all learn something. -- Brenda Lewis WIP: "Pink Baby" photo frame, Candamar |
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On 1/2/04 9:23 AM,"animaux" posted:
Well, it was a success. I gave "Spiritdancer" to my neighbor's mother. I labeled it a gift from Rance, her 15 year old grandson who has cerebral palsy and cannot move, speak, see or eat by himself. This grandmother gives respite to my neighbor (Rance's mom) for the entire summer, and all school vacations. I don't have to tell you all the tears in the room. Then I decided, well, Celtic Christmas is here too and my neighbor really loved her. So, she got that one. Fortunately, I adore both of these and will almost certainly stitch them again, if I want them. If I stitch Celtic Christmas again, she'll be done in blue with beads, not that awful gold thread. I hated using that stuff. I got far more out of giving those to them, than they got out of receiving them. Vic - that was a truly generous gift you gave. I'm sure when you stitch them again for yourself, you'll feel that warmth of having gifted the originals all over again. Ellice |
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On 1/2/04 12:49 PM,"animaux" posted:
On Fri, 02 Jan 2004 14:41:40 GMT, Cheryl Isaak opined: Victoria, You are a rare woman! Someday, I can give you the hug I want to right now! Cheryl Sometimes I wonder. I wonder if I am this rare person. I'm being serious. I think maybe I'm a fraud, or maybe I'm not, but either way I wonder. Well, it's good to wonder - at least IMHO. We recently took 2 of our surrogate children out - hockey game, dinner pre-game, hangin' in the club post game. It was a great night. As we were driving home, we were talking with them (they're a 19 yr old soph at BU & a 17.5 yr old senior in high school) - knowing that their folks joke about our frivolity. The kids are easy with us - as we're not completely typical of the family "adult" friends (we're talking a really, really, geeky but nice collection of engineers, scientists, etc). But often I think they take our sports car, hockey tix, other material things out of perspective. We had a nice talk about us realizing that while we do live pretty luxuriously, or frivolously - we're not all tied up in that as the meaning of life. Understanding that so much of this is just things, and not the essence of our lives - and that it's a good thing to remember. It's hard to balance the everyday pleasantness of material life, and those things which are truly important - to you for your spiritual well-being. You do your best, I'd guess, and that's what counts. My sense of deepened spirituality over the course of the last several years, particularly this past year has brought me to a place where I am not sure I fully understand. I talk to my mother and I am still very confused by her. I still can't figure anything out. I am so far detached from dysfunction I almost don't know how to be on the other end of it. That's when I wonder the most. I wonder if there is something more I'm supposed to be doing. I believe I'm a supportive person. I'm also very supported. I have a good life and I'm forever grateful for that. Where do any of you draw the line between being supportive and being taken advantage or, or being taken for granted? I'm going to snip the rest of this painful recounting. I think people are blessed, truly, when they're family manages to not have someone who is truly dysfunctional, or disruptive. There are always difficulties in relationships, some more than others. I'd be happy if we in our small family (parents, grandparents, all gone, only 1 aunt, 1 sibling of my grandmother left) could just have the normal little rivalries, ups/downs, goods and bads. In our family - it is my SIL. I have tried, like you, for many years to deal with it, figure out what I can do to make it better. But, finally, I accept - it's her. She's just not a good person. I am happy when she's pleasant, and basically try to be cold to all the rest - in not getting hurt, upset, riled up. It's very hard. She is constantly critical, shallow, demanding, rude, and worst of all a liar. She has told so many horrid stories to my DB, and others that it took 2 years of DB and I not talking, and our "uncle" to finally confront him - for DB to finally realize he'd been misled. She's taken property of my parents that was left to me, and lied about it. Worst - she says all kinds of negative and disrespectful things about others - in front of the children. It's terrible. But, finally - all the rest of us whose lives touch her - we kind of just shake our heads, and try to ignore it. It's hard. It's sad. Sometimes all you can do is be the good person you are, or try to be, and hope that speaks for you and that others under the bad influence will realize it. For me, we all hope that as my nieces and nephews become adults, they will be better able to make their own judgements about the rest of their family - despite their mother's ravings. You draw the line with doing what makes you feel you've done what you can, reasonably, and work thru the rest. Guilt levels are different for all of us. But if you know you're being manipulated - you can always tell her that, and refuse to give in when it's painful to you. Do what you think is right, and leave it at that. Just my opinion. Thanks for listening. I'm truly not in a struggle, rather, I'm stumped. Sometimes people who act maliciously, or manipulatively are just stupefying. That's how it is with my SIL. Just don't get it - but I think somehow she makes herself feel important. I donąt know. Not a psycho-therapist - but I think it's the kind of thing best spoken with a counselor in person if it's really bothering you. ellice |
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animaux wrote:
Now, I am not trying to give the impression I am suffering any ill thoughts or feelings with this. I'm relatively fine about it all. What I don't know how to do is to be "supportive" of someone who changes the story daily to suit her whim, but expects me to be supportive. I think you find it confusing because it's impossible ;-) It seems to me there's nothing *to* "support." "Support" implies there's something *there*, but if she's changing her tune all the time, there isn't really anything there to support. So really, she's looking for something else, and she probably doesn't even know what it is. In my experience (which is fortunately limited), you can try: 1) If you have any clue what she's really needing (even if she doesn't know what it is herself), try feeding her that. 2) Just live your life with integrity and compassion, knowing that you can't fix this for her. Even if you parrotted back whatever she asked for that day, it still wouldn't satisfy. Best wishes, Ericka |
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Dear Victoria: Two words. Protect yourself!
I know, I have btdt. I won't go into detail, but I was (by far) the youngest, with two older brothers, but I was "only a girl". My poor, neurotic mother was the kind who adored her husband and her sons, but I was just a daughter. Last time I was in England I vowed I would not go back until after she was dead. Does it occur to you that all the spiritual growth you have had to go through was caused by that manipulative, controlling woman?? I know that in my case, mine gave me a HUGE inferiority complex, which took me years to work through AFTER I was married and living on this side of the pond. If you have to detach from her, ignore her, and refuse to listen to her nonsense, DO IT. It will not be easy for you at first, but I think you need to insist on maintaining your own self respect, and refusing to tolerate her nonsense. E-mail me privately if you need to unload. Olwyn Mary in New Orleans |
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